| Seeing isn’t believing
Reading isn’t believing Hearing isn’t believing A truthful confession is also not reassuring The only thing that’s true Is Gods promise, Gods love, Gods Hope.. As long as they are called humans.. There’s always a chance to be cheated. By untrustworthy humans. Who claimed to be trustworthy Dats what I learnt. After about 16 years of living.. The fear just keep on growing From day to day. Leaving cancer inside my heart The pain I felt, The lost I felt, Is no one have the right to know A secret I’ve kept locked away Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away. No one can ever see Because.. none is true to me nowadays Yeah.. life is full of faces Full of fools And. It hurts Why should they make promises For in the end.. they’ll just blew it away? I tried to accept the fact Just how much cruelty is going on In a very invisible way Slowly ~ steadily ~ and poisons every single thing Even the heart of an innocent gurl Me. Heh, maybe he’ll laugh Maybe she’ll laugh Maybe they’ll laugh Just let it be. Because they are just the same Giving hope, giving promises, giving light And holding tight And all for that is for what? To gain my trust, to gain my belief, to gain my strength, to gain my soul But what did they do with all? destroy it! I am not a doll nor a favorite toy Whom they can hug and play.. Love and cherish~ But thrown away As a new toy comes in never objects nor cry I am a living being With feelings and normal desires the feeling of secure and dependable are yet not available…… It’s a global issue. For when it will end.. ….no one knows……. Sometimes I feel like trusted you so well Sometimes I just feel like screaming at my self Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know Somehow I need to be alone Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe Sometimes I need everyone to stay away from me Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know Somehow I need you to go. Inside of me. I was confused Just stuck hollow and alone I want to feel what I thaught was never real. I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long I want to find something I’ve wanted all along Looking everywhere I only find that its not the way I had imagined Idunt want to be ignored I can pretend this is the way it will stay. I’m just trying to bend the truth I don’t know who to trust Everyone.. everyone feels so far away from me So far from me. Far from me ………………………………………………………………………… |
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